Bisexual girl in love with best friend

A long distance relationship can be difficult, but can work out if you both put in the effort. And my other fear is that even in some hypothetical world where we start cuddling and stuff, I would just be an emotional band aid until he finds somebody who he want to sleep with. And sigh, I am still in love with the guy, big time. But sometimes I wonder… Am I bi? Then you get sucked into it and it begins to affect your real life and emotions. You could just be friends "with benefits" -- or her true feelings may be coming out when she's intoxicated.

I feel so alone and as if nobody cares. Everyday in the summer, I keep thinking about her because when school start, she won't be in the same high school as me. I didn't find the strenght to tell him though. Wish I had kissed her when I picked up on the vibes between us